when you study early christianity and realize that no one really knows what happened but you try to discover the truth anyway:
Can someone elaborate on this? Give me some info about early Christianity?
Of course! Here is a little context:
Unlike common perception, the early church was not actually unified; there were hundreds of different sects who each had their own opinion of who and what Jesus was. Each sect was, in a way, competing with each other, and it involved a shit ton of politics. In the end, the sects that won became the standard and all those that disagreed were “heretics.”
Among the first few decades after the death of Jesus, there was no actual documentation until ~50 AD, and all the written works (canon or apocryphal) were distortions of the actual “historical” Jesus. So trying to decipher the truth is near impossible.